In The Past

In the Past

I want it in the past
This pain you caused
Scars so deep you won't ever know how far they run
My heart is a battle field of broken bodies and lost hope
How dare you do this to me?
Break me so I can't ever be whole again
I deserve to be happy and loved
But you took my love and picked it apart and then glued it back again
Then you did it all over again
Is this your way of amusement?
Something to pass the time?
Do I mean so little to you can't let me be?
Why do you re open old wounds?
They will only turn into ugly scars and then I will be hated by all
Is that your plan?
To make me ugly and weak?
To have others hate me and leave me just like you did?
I do not want to lose you but you left me long ago
I just couldn't see
Couldn't see what you were doing to me
These scars you caused may never heal but I will not allow you
To create new wounds
I will not bleed out any more
It may take time to let others back in after you caused me to shut them out
But I know with time and love I will find a way
Much like a baby sea turtle finds his way back home
I will find my way back home someday too
No thanks to you